Forgive yourself

If it was that easy I would be there. I know in my brain that logically it isn't my fault. But in my heart, I still feel every day that it is my fault. That I am to blame, that because my foolish heart thought it would be worth it more than once, that because … Continue reading Forgive yourself

5 happy things 23

So this week has been a bit of a mess, ( a big mess for reasons I won'tgo into) but I have been in Bath for the weekend and it has improved my week no end! 1. I was given a C.1886 sewing machine to fix and do up which will keep me happy for … Continue reading 5 happy things 23

Absence

I know I have been somewhat absent from the blogging. I have posts half written but I can't seem to find anything left to finish them. Bar this one, but it's more of a 'such and such' has been happening rather than a 'I am feeling' post, which is what I'm currently failing to write. … Continue reading Absence

Rollercoastering

Today I managed to time my errand at exactly the wrong moment. There were obviously lots of primary age kids, but also a lit of toddlers, babies, prams and pregnant women. There were hoards of grannies shepherding their small charges down the main street to the post office. 

Jack Valentine’s

Jack Valentine or Valentine's knock, is a tradition in Norfolk and my family of essentially playing 'ding dong ditch' with gifts on the doorsteps or windows of a house for the kids. These gifts are 'left' by Jack Valentine (or a helpful and hopefully speedy neighbour) for the children on the doorstep every Valentine's day evening. When February … Continue reading Jack Valentine’s

Piss off I’m just an auntie 

My partners brother (henceforth termed brother in law) and his partner are having a baby. People on my side of the family keep teasing me about knitting baby shoes when we gather to watch tv on a sunday with the whole clan together. 'Ohh are you expecting' 'Look someone's broody' 'It'll be your turn soon' … Continue reading Piss off I’m just an auntie 

5 happy things 3

My five happy things for this weeks My in laws are having a baby! There is now a use for ny hopeless urge to buy/make baby clothes  Seriously I. GET. TO. BE. AN. AUNT. AGAIN!(As I now claim all children of my partners siblings as nieces/ nephews as well as kids of my own siblings.)  … Continue reading 5 happy things 3

So my health…

This week my health has been interesting. It's the only real thing that describes it. It hasn't been awful, it could definitely be worse, but my digestive system is having some serious moments. This week has not been it's finest hour. I got a bit over tired with schoolwork and my body threw a hissy … Continue reading So my health…

Who I’ve been

We're now at what would have been the 20 weeks point. We would have ultrasound pictures and know what their gender would have been. We'd have been able to feel them move for a while.  At this stage they look human, not like a blob of cells. I look at images of babies in the … Continue reading Who I’ve been

We’re talking about the future 

We're talking about our future again, we haven't for a while. We just stopped because it didn't really feel like there was a future. We just moved forward each day and kept our heads down clinging on to each other.  It feels less like drowning. I made a cushion. It doesn't sound like a lot … Continue reading We’re talking about the future 

Five happy things 1

I thought I would start posting Five things that have made me happy, or that I am grateful for at the end of each week, to try and keep in mind the positive things. Feel free to comment things that habe made you happy this week too. I got on my bicycle for the first … Continue reading Five happy things 1